Just wanted to keep all of you non-Facebookers in the loop.
Today I spoke with the director of the maternity house where the birthmother is staying. (As you know from my last post, we were scheduled to get to go with the birthmother soon to her OB appointment and learn the sex of the baby.) Well, it seems before she got settled at the house, Sybil was staying with a friend. A friend who apparently talked endlessly about the "fun" parts of parenting: how cute and cuddly babies are, how you always have somebody to "play with", how fun their little baby noises and antics are, how fun it is to dress them up in cute clothes. Fun, fun, nothing but big carnivals of fun!
Apparently as they were carrying stuff into her new room, the director reminded Sybil about needing to plan a time to get together with us. Before Sybil could respond, the friend jumped in and announced, "Oh, no, that's off. She's changed her mind about the whole adoption thing."
After the friend had tootalooed on her merry way, Jenny pulled Sybil away from the rest of the girls to talk with her about what had happened since their previous "110 % sure" conversation. Sybil replied, "Well, I just think it might be kinda fun to keep the baby." (Babies are pretty fun, you know. That's exactly what I was thinking during the rocket-vomit/syringe-her-to-keep-her-alive years of Sophie's life. Man, this is fun! ...Actually, I might have thought that a few times, but I'm pretty sure I was medicated.)
So that's where we stand now. As disheartening as all of this was to hear (especially when things felt so solid a few days ago), I really do think I feel okay about things. Of course we will be just absolutely THRILLED if this new little babe joins the family, but we will also be okay if that's not what comes out of this situation. We know that God has our family in His hands, and despite the fact that we might wanna spit a few nails when things look like they're not shaping up "right", we know His will is perfect. It is. And when you look at it from that perspective, everything just seems to feel more peaceful. ...Maybe even more serene than the circumstances really are. You know what I mean?
Thanks for praying, and we'll keep everyone informed as this roller coaster ride twists and turns. Wheeeee! It's obviously gonna be a bumpy one!
A couple more cute pictures of Sophie-doodle. Now that's fun, right? ;) (*The child won't wear the teeniest of clips. But a hat with a gargantuan flower the size of a second head? She's all for that!)